Have you ever heard that song, “The Gambler” by Kenny Rodgers? I think of the chorus ” you’ve got to know when to hold ’em, know when to fold ’em, know when to walk away, and know when to run”. Hopefully we learn and grow from our life experiences. Much slower than I would have liked, but perhaps right on time… I feel like I have somewhat learned when to hold and when to fold in my life. Sometimes are easier than others. I try really hard not to put myself in situations where I need to run but after years of ignoring red flag after red flag, I have no problem bolting if I need to. I am notorious for giving too many chances, but I have learned to walk away. Somewhere down the line, the concept of protecting my peace clicked in my brain. I am literally the only person who can control that… my peace. I am learning to sit with my emotions, my thoughts and what I will allow or not allow in my life. It has been quieter, but I don’t miss the noise. I’ve learned I spent a lot of time hung up on the idea I how I wanted things to be instead of focusing on the reality of how things really are. Stepping back and seeing things for what they really are and shockingly how they have been…. has indeed been painful, but also a relief in making moving forward much easier.
Rocking Chair Pondering 
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